I understand......big difference, though.....I don't do it for a
living like you. Hell, I do all my work on my own terms, on my own
schedule, not someone else's. I can just park it and work on it out
later.
 I started loooong ago and I have countless hours working on these
things. It all began with the aircooled for me, then gradually evolved
to the Vanagon.
I can't imagine working on these things as hard as you do, then
gradually losing my love for them. I sure hope that's not what's
happening to you.....

Miguel